the truth

When I first heard this song on the radio the artist was talking about when he and his wife had two small children and they were just so tired. I know that there are other people who are so worn out by babies waking in the middle of the night or whatnot… but for some reason when he said it my heart sighed with relief and said you too??? So it is okay that I am this tired??? Okay. What he said then meant more to me than this song.

If you are worn… listen and sigh in relief with me?



And this song… oh this song is what has been in my heart… and it has been stuck in my head since my husband made me listen to it.


I guess I needed to hear it again

After reading this post by Ann Voskamp (and writing my own post)…

We sang this song yesterday at church…



We also sang Open Up The Sky by Deluge

And then Tom spoke these words (click there, and then click “listen” next to where it says “11-20-11 Submitted”)

And then, though I was planning on reading something else, I ended up reading part of the very last chapter of Linda Dillow’s Creative Counterpart. It is one of my favorite books… if you haven’t read it already, I highly recommend it! This is part of what I read…

There are difficult circumstances in the life of every person in every marriage. We each have a choice. When the hard times come, we can put up our fists and fight with anger and resentment, or we can give the situation to God and trust He will cause good to come out of even a bad situation. The first choice breeds discontent and frustration. The second breeds the fruit of the Spirit – love, joy, peace, patients, kindness, goodness, gentleness and self-control.

God promises to produce godly qualities in our lives as we properly respond to trials. “We also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us” (Rom. 5:3-5 NIV). Do any of you need perseverance in your live? Or character? Or hope? I do! God has asked us to respond to trials by thanking Him!

By thanking God for the unreliable and difficult circumstances, we are saying, “God, You are the blessed Controller of all things. You are sovereign and in control. I don’t understand all that is happening, but I thank You and trust You to teach me what You want me to learn, and to work it all together for good.” God commands us to thank Him and is pleased when we do. “In everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you” (1 Thess. 5:18).

Giving thanks is different from being thankful. I am thankful for my husband and four children and feel overwhelmed sometimes with gratitude for them. When I give thanks to God for a trial or difficult circumstance, it is not a feeling of thankfulness but a decision of my will to choose to trust God and thank Him in spite of my feelings.

{Linda Dillow – Creative Counterpart}


This song was sung at our church this morning. It is my Story. You know, the one of finding Love, the true kind, in a Father God – a Daddy God. The God who, with His strong and beautiful and trustworthy hands, controls everything that I try to control with my own small ones.

I did not know a song existed that could so completely express it. Voices, stolen peace, attempted (and failed) perfection, lost fights with expectations, illusions… and then the inexplicable peace when I could finally breathe because I knew that Someone Else was holding it all together – had been the whole time, and that that Someone loved me.

Is there a song that tells your Story?

Control – JJ Heller

The cut is deep, but never deep enough for me
It doesn’t hurt enough to make me forget
One moment of relief is never long enough
To keep the voices in my head
From stealing my peace

Oh, control
It’s time, time to let you go

Perfection has a price
But I cannot afford to live that life
It always ends the same; a fight I never win

Oh, control
It’s time, time to let you go

I’m letting go of the illusion
I’m letting go of the confusion
I can’t carry it another step
I close my eyes and take a breath
I’m letting go, letting go

There were scars before my scars
Love written on the hands that hung the stars
Hope living in the blood that was spilled for me

Oh, control
It’s time, time to let you go…
It’s time, time to let you go

Miscellany Monday

Joining miscellany monday for the first time this morning

This happened last week :)

My baby’s got rhythm :)

We painted our bedroom this color and bought a down comforter and white duvet cover… now even though the room is still a post-painting mess, leaving that room in the morning is even harder.

(P.S. that color looks dark, but it is a perfect warm-toned gray and with enough lighting, I love it).

I heard this song on the radio last night as I went to buy 2 frostys and a large fry (dinner didn’t turn out how I wanted)… I think I love it.

Blackberry yogurt and granola. Mmm.